January 2011
Did you ever fall for someone you know you shouldn’t?
Try hard to fight your feelings, but you just couldn’t?
You fall deeper with each passing day,
But try to hide it in every possible way.
He’s only a friend, and nothing else—
That’s the lie you keeping telling yourself.
You keep on saying…


let me tell you about my romantic friend … his name is Purwadi *no last name*. i saw him for the first time when there was a Freshmen Orientation, but we hadn’t in touch yet.
on 6th November 2010, there was the summer school report and i was changing my uniform to be a casual clothes. then i tell my best friends, Audia and Rofi, that i wanted to go to dormitory to have a rest. but then, they come late, almost 4 because we went to Dago Pakar and have time in Savira’s villa. then, Audia told me that Purwadi wants my number. i was a little bit surprised because not every guys at school like me. but then, i gave her my number and she sent it to Purwadi. but he hadn’t text me yet.
on monday, i had time with Dinda every lunch break, then an unknown number texts me with a blank message. i reply to the “John Doe” in French so he wouldn’t understand what i’m saying. but then he replied it with Italian, and i don’t even understand. but then i tell my friends if they recognize this number. Audia said it’s a Kalimantan’s number and she said it might be Purwadi. at night, i opened my twitter and Audia’s online and i ask her, “itu beneran Purwadi ?” and she said yes. i was like: i’m shocked! then i ask his name when i almost going to sleep. but i’ve waited for his reply so long. when i turned on my phone at 4 a.m., i saw his message: “jangan kecewa ya, aku purwadi” and “kamu kecewa ya? jd ga mau bales?” then i say: “nggak kok, aku lg tidur aja”. but he woke me up by message.
at school, i meet Dinda again and behind me, it’s Purwadi. when i look back, he smiled at me. but then, in the afternoon, i met Purwadi when i walked slowly after my chemistry class. then he shaked my hand, saying our name. he’s taller than me and i think, he’s perfect to be my friend. he said that he wants to be my friend either, but he called me “Princess” in Italian when he text me. i know it’s romantic but we’re just friends.
we became a romantic friend ever since he uses sweet words even on his facebook. he likes my wikifashion link and he just know that i like fashion. i tell him about my style and his style is emo or harajuku, ‘cuz i saw him wearing black the other day. and to be honest, the way he says sweet words are like a “sex” to my ears.
Purwadi … I love you with all my heart … long last for both of us … xoxo . ♥
10.09.1994 + 02.05.1995 = 08.11.2010 ♥
Virgo + Taurus = ♥
xoxo . ♥
_Nara_



N.B: this is Purwadi (the full-black apparels with hat), Rama (in a autumn-colored trousers), Mufti (in a grey tops) and 2 of the Turkish big brothers (in Turkey, they are called: ağbi). i ♥ his style here …